HAPPY VALENTINES DAYYY (Day early)
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rotteningHappy V day!! I wanted to put my thoughts on valentines day cus I kinda like the holiday. I miss when I was younger during valentines day because my elementary classes would ask every single student to bring candy for the whole class and we would pass them out. It was like a 2nd halloween but red and pink instead of orange and black which is still cool because, candy and pink and red are cool colors. I think valentine's day is fun because I have this pink cartigen that has a red heart and I wore it to a valentine's dance once. I looked really weird in the photos cus it was before I cut my hair but oh well, I still had fun. SPEAKING OF VALENTINES DAY... I wanna talk about my crushes or the times I THINK I fell in love (this feels so cringy my god.) but yea I wanna talk about my past crushes. I also wanna talk about creepy people and how they quote on quote "flirt" if you even count it as flirting but whatever. Ill just in general talk about my thoughts about love and couple stuff cus I think its really interesting
"DAVID"
SO it's elementary school, this dude named david was my crush for like a few years I think? Idk why I liked him, he was just a nice person so I guess that's why but I really don't know why I really cared about him. Anyways, sad part, he liked another person in my class so we never dated, mind u this is like 3rd grade so drama like this is gonna happen. Idk what he's doing now but I hope life is good to him, or not, idk. He had some VERY bright eyes, I can't remember if his eyes were blue or just such a light brown that it was hard to tell, he had curly hair and I think thats all I remember. Also he said that he wanted to fuck the girl he liked in middle school and to a middle schooler, that was a INSANEEE idea.
I don't think ive had any crushes from middle school sooooooo were gonna skip to high school
"Roller girl"
Me and my friend went rollerskating at around 8-9pm, mind you ive NEVER roller skated so I'm falling, rolling over and running into walls. Well, at this roller rink, they had a bench in the corner for people to sit if they needed to have a break or whatever but my friend decided to sit me down on the bench so that I would stop falling. She said she would look for her phone but i had her phone, by the time I was trying to yell her name in the crowd of people, she couldn't hear me. SO I sat there until a girl came by and fell right in front of me, I asked her 'are you okay" in a loud tone cus the music was BLASTINGGGG and tried pulling her up to the bench. She said "thank you!" and we stared at each other for a bit just laughing. She was honestly really pretty, not sure if I saw her romantically or just "she's pretty" but she complimented the bow charm I had on my glasses and I said I liked her hair. She was wearing a white top, she had black eyeliner, a fringe, styled hair, darkish brown eyes and I think a headband??? I sooner or later got up cus I didn't want to take up space on the bench but also I felt awkward staring at her, mind you, I CANNOT talk with people in public. I got up and met back up with my friend and I gave back her phone and we rolled around for a bit, well I tried my best not to die but that didn't really work. Later, my friend wanted to roll around for a bit and I was tired so I waited at the top ish part of the roller rink with chairs and tables. I'm you know, eating my cotton candy, shoving the floss down my throat with my sticky hands and looking like a sticky ipad kid. When the girl from earlier rolls by and say "HI!!", mind u I'm tired af so I decide (worst decision) to just nod back and wave my hand with no expression. Later my friend and me leave the rollerskating place and wait outside for her mom to pick us up, while I talked about the girl in the roller rink. She tells me "I think she was a middle schooler because the girl with the group of girls that complimented you were middle schoolers" "she was wearing a black hoodie" which if your listening to the story, is not what the girl was wearing when she talked to me. I told my friend how she wasn't apart of the other kids that complimented me, she was wearing a different color shirt and if she was a middle schooler, my friend should shoot me.. so uhh, to the girl out there, I thought your hair and outfit was really pretty but if your a middle schooler, then I just like your outfit, thats it.
SPEAKING ON LOVEEEEEE and couples, there's this comic called "pinky and pepper" about to lesbian dogs that are artist and die together and go to hell. It honestly kinda sad and with a lot of content with 2 girls in love, there's alwayssss some toxic part of it or "doomed" part of it. I want to read this one comic that is about a emo and scene girl being together, its called 920 london and is also, a doomed romance.
I think love is great, do i think I'm good at relationships, HELLLLLL NO. Do I somehow atract the weirdest people? yes so Ima tell some weird stories that my friends have told me are prob attempts as flirting with me!!!
"Mason.."
Anyways, basic premise, dude I have never talked to ask for my name, well first he says 'whats your name?" "you know what, i think I'm gonna name you curnal" or something like that. He ask again what my name was and I tell him, he then says my name is "bold" (what) so me being awkward, I ask for his name. He says "my name is mason" I chuckle cus I'm confused and I have no clue who this is. Later after the bell rings to go to your class after break, I hear my name being LOUDLY called from the otherside of the class. When i tell you Ive never ran so fast, my god
"WHta is happening"
I'm gonna also just quickly go through this, some dude i'm partners with every class would try getting close to me by going RIGHT next to me, sit down infront me when I sit down even though his seat is in the back, get back up when I sit back up, when I asked my teacher if I can go to the math tutor down the hall, he followed right behind me. When I turned away cus I didn't wanna face him, he would go out of his way to inch closer to me so that he was in view. creepy stufff!!!!
Thoughts on love and relationships
I think for most of my life ive felt left out of love cus no one would ask me out but as I've gotten older, I really don't care anymore. As long as I got my sketchbook, phone and sewing supplies, I really don't mind. I also got friends and Ive never really felt like I'm missing out on too much like yes, it can seem really great to have someone you love but do I really see myself loving someone romantically or sexually in a longggg term relationship, not really. I think looking at others relationships are cute but seeing myself in one, BARFFFFFFF. Viewing myself romantic or "sexy" grosses me out sm and I sometimes feel weird when I know someone views me as that. I think my negative view on others seeing myself as hot or sexy is just from my past and I don't know if I'll ever be able to change that. I don't find kisses hot, I don't look at peoples faces and be like "oop I'm getting a boner" or something like, idk if there's something up with me or that I just "haven't found the one". Love is reallyyy cool from very far away, I'm perfectly happy with being friends with people and just having a platonic relationship rather than getting nasty with people. To many times in the past, i have had trouble telling the difference between if i really do like someone or if I just finding hangout with them fun.
Anyways this post is getting TOOO personal!! Im gonna be watching "my bloody valentine" with a friend so lets hope its good.. I really like the slasher in the film tho, his design is so cool! Okay bye love birds
"DAVID"
SO it's elementary school, this dude named david was my crush for like a few years I think? Idk why I liked him, he was just a nice person so I guess that's why but I really don't know why I really cared about him. Anyways, sad part, he liked another person in my class so we never dated, mind u this is like 3rd grade so drama like this is gonna happen. Idk what he's doing now but I hope life is good to him, or not, idk. He had some VERY bright eyes, I can't remember if his eyes were blue or just such a light brown that it was hard to tell, he had curly hair and I think thats all I remember. Also he said that he wanted to fuck the girl he liked in middle school and to a middle schooler, that was a INSANEEE idea.
I don't think ive had any crushes from middle school sooooooo were gonna skip to high school
"Roller girl"
Me and my friend went rollerskating at around 8-9pm, mind you ive NEVER roller skated so I'm falling, rolling over and running into walls. Well, at this roller rink, they had a bench in the corner for people to sit if they needed to have a break or whatever but my friend decided to sit me down on the bench so that I would stop falling. She said she would look for her phone but i had her phone, by the time I was trying to yell her name in the crowd of people, she couldn't hear me. SO I sat there until a girl came by and fell right in front of me, I asked her 'are you okay" in a loud tone cus the music was BLASTINGGGG and tried pulling her up to the bench. She said "thank you!" and we stared at each other for a bit just laughing. She was honestly really pretty, not sure if I saw her romantically or just "she's pretty" but she complimented the bow charm I had on my glasses and I said I liked her hair. She was wearing a white top, she had black eyeliner, a fringe, styled hair, darkish brown eyes and I think a headband??? I sooner or later got up cus I didn't want to take up space on the bench but also I felt awkward staring at her, mind you, I CANNOT talk with people in public. I got up and met back up with my friend and I gave back her phone and we rolled around for a bit, well I tried my best not to die but that didn't really work. Later, my friend wanted to roll around for a bit and I was tired so I waited at the top ish part of the roller rink with chairs and tables. I'm you know, eating my cotton candy, shoving the floss down my throat with my sticky hands and looking like a sticky ipad kid. When the girl from earlier rolls by and say "HI!!", mind u I'm tired af so I decide (worst decision) to just nod back and wave my hand with no expression. Later my friend and me leave the rollerskating place and wait outside for her mom to pick us up, while I talked about the girl in the roller rink. She tells me "I think she was a middle schooler because the girl with the group of girls that complimented you were middle schoolers" "she was wearing a black hoodie" which if your listening to the story, is not what the girl was wearing when she talked to me. I told my friend how she wasn't apart of the other kids that complimented me, she was wearing a different color shirt and if she was a middle schooler, my friend should shoot me.. so uhh, to the girl out there, I thought your hair and outfit was really pretty but if your a middle schooler, then I just like your outfit, thats it.
SPEAKING ON LOVEEEEEE and couples, there's this comic called "pinky and pepper" about to lesbian dogs that are artist and die together and go to hell. It honestly kinda sad and with a lot of content with 2 girls in love, there's alwayssss some toxic part of it or "doomed" part of it. I want to read this one comic that is about a emo and scene girl being together, its called 920 london and is also, a doomed romance.
I think love is great, do i think I'm good at relationships, HELLLLLL NO. Do I somehow atract the weirdest people? yes so Ima tell some weird stories that my friends have told me are prob attempts as flirting with me!!!
"Mason.."
Anyways, basic premise, dude I have never talked to ask for my name, well first he says 'whats your name?" "you know what, i think I'm gonna name you curnal" or something like that. He ask again what my name was and I tell him, he then says my name is "bold" (what) so me being awkward, I ask for his name. He says "my name is mason" I chuckle cus I'm confused and I have no clue who this is. Later after the bell rings to go to your class after break, I hear my name being LOUDLY called from the otherside of the class. When i tell you Ive never ran so fast, my god
"WHta is happening"
I'm gonna also just quickly go through this, some dude i'm partners with every class would try getting close to me by going RIGHT next to me, sit down infront me when I sit down even though his seat is in the back, get back up when I sit back up, when I asked my teacher if I can go to the math tutor down the hall, he followed right behind me. When I turned away cus I didn't wanna face him, he would go out of his way to inch closer to me so that he was in view. creepy stufff!!!!
Thoughts on love and relationships
I think for most of my life ive felt left out of love cus no one would ask me out but as I've gotten older, I really don't care anymore. As long as I got my sketchbook, phone and sewing supplies, I really don't mind. I also got friends and Ive never really felt like I'm missing out on too much like yes, it can seem really great to have someone you love but do I really see myself loving someone romantically or sexually in a longggg term relationship, not really. I think looking at others relationships are cute but seeing myself in one, BARFFFFFFF. Viewing myself romantic or "sexy" grosses me out sm and I sometimes feel weird when I know someone views me as that. I think my negative view on others seeing myself as hot or sexy is just from my past and I don't know if I'll ever be able to change that. I don't find kisses hot, I don't look at peoples faces and be like "oop I'm getting a boner" or something like, idk if there's something up with me or that I just "haven't found the one". Love is reallyyy cool from very far away, I'm perfectly happy with being friends with people and just having a platonic relationship rather than getting nasty with people. To many times in the past, i have had trouble telling the difference between if i really do like someone or if I just finding hangout with them fun.
Anyways this post is getting TOOO personal!! Im gonna be watching "my bloody valentine" with a friend so lets hope its good.. I really like the slasher in the film tho, his design is so cool! Okay bye love birds
