Jesus would prob send me to hell (vent??)

[rottening]

Heyyaayayyayayayya, so I was listening to the song "I dream of Jesus" and it reminded me of a friend that stopped talking to me cus I "wasn't gonna help her find god" which is so lamee but also really makes me sad even after like 1-2 years later. I really liked hanging out with her, we loved looking at eachothers art and taking about things like lps, video games, art, monster high, etc and I even gave her my monster high doll for her birthday. It still just makes me upset because she hangs out with other friends and I sometimes think to myself "what if they're not religious? what if I was the only exception because she just didn't like me.". Like I really like her, I wanna talk with her and spend time with her but she just shut me out and it just sucksss. I really don't mind if u believe in a religion, I actually find religion really interesting and a special thing to explore but maybe she views me as "demonic" or something for the things I like and how I express myself so maybeeeee thats why she doesn't wanna talk but I just don't even know anymore. I know my friends have told me to just move on but idk, I really did like hanging out with her in middle school and I considered her like a best friend but whatever, I guess we just move on and forget about it like it was stupid. UGHWEBFHWE this suckssss, what the hell did I do? Everyone tells me to move on and I know I should but like can I get some sort of explanation? I know I'm a terrible person but ughhhh give me something. i still kinda cry about it sometimes, really dumb to waste so much energy on a person that doesn't talk to me anymore but idk, im just really tired of stuff